have no idea wat got into me...
was playing audition-ballroom with them...
and halfway through the game...
suddenly felt emo...
and my hand is trembling till i can't press the buttons...
suddenly felt the sense of lost so greatly...
and as i quit the game...
i cried...
this is so random...

enduring the pain...

have decided to kope the emo pics from laoda's blog since it is quite impossible for most pple to see them!
emo-ing at the corridor there.... by the way, this part of the railing is much higher than the one GJC-ians climbed!
lol! yz took a emo pic of herself!

ok... as u can see... we finally recover from emo-ing...

do ur part... join emo club...

sian sian sian....
only attend maths lecture today...
which is from 8am to 9am...
so i slacked from 9am till 3pm to wait for X-country to start...
thx to j.k. for lending me his PSP to play...
thx to laoda for helping me buy my mocha breeze during "break"
thx to yz for sleeping on my shoulder and making my right hand numb...
thx alicia for crapping with me for solid 6 hours!
the sch is really very jian...
cos the teachers scared we pon X-country and so they closed the gate even at 12.30pm...
thus all of us are stuck in the sch with nothing to do...
took some random pics with laoda and yz...
pls look for them at laoda's blog...
F.Y.I, most of them are emo pics...
cos they are taken at the corridor behind LT4..
the place where i took my first GJC-ians' pic...
and we slept at some ulu place near the corridor which no one ever passes by...
although i walked for the whole X-country..
but i am still tired...
walked for 3.2km leh...
rather pissed off cos i din fulfill 2 of my objectives today...
but nvm...
shall be a good girl and keep it to myself...

oh ya... looked at yz's blog and saw something... thus feel like updating...
i said that she lacked the sense of security nowadays... thats why she has been holding my hand whenever she find the chance to nowadays... just wan to tell u yz... my hand is always available for you whenever u feel insecured!!! see baba so good right? have decided not to disclose the list of qualities for ur desired bf...

A: why are u so unhappy nowadays?
B: because i am still thinking about my friends in other schools... and that makes me emo when i think of them...
A: why not try to let go?
B: it is hard... every single spot of the school lies fond memories with them...
A: but isn't it painful to be holding on?
B: i rather endure the pain than to let go...

emo-ing in progress...

sian...
sian...
sian...
lesson ended at 10am today ok?
which means 2h30min of slacking time...
and...
i have to wait for reading club's welcome party to start..
which means another 2 hours of slacking time...
i slacked for like four hours today la!
reading club is quite boring!
the president of the club is easily entertained by her own jokes...
and seriously the programme doesn't interest me...
so most probably i won't be joining that as my cca...
went to look at media club after that...
they are having a camp next fri!
media sounds fun...
at least better than reading...
and both me and laoda agree on that...
so now we are wondering if we should join eco club or media...
eco club leh!
where all my memories would rekindle...
haiiii...
went to meet with jia en and mei hong to get the shirt...
muahahaha...
i am going to crash ajc on tues!
but it is for a good course ok?
cos i am going to watch my two shifu play audi!
they are having a competition and as a tudi i must show my support~
looking forward to that day....
oh ya...
met joy and xiu han before meeting jia en and mei hong...
not really arranged de...
it is more of improper meeting...
cos waiting for my sj mates ma...
they look nice in aj uniform!
and oh ya....
i was telling joy to show more enthusiasm in meeting me...
and so she tried to show me how happy she is to see me,
by grabbing my shirt and tried to forcefully hug me!
luckily i am agile enough to avoid the hug! *smiles to myself stupidly*
haha... i will be happy enough if u say u miss me too... no need to show me through ur actions!
too bad u not member of jiji... if not i will be very willing to let u hug!
really happy to see her and xh though!
xh getting more and more funny...
like a siao gi na too...
and i feel comfortable talking to her too...
guess that has something to do with our similar characters...
after meeting them and getting the shirt...
went home with big head!
almost everyday also meet her...
haha..
she really my best sj mate!

zhuang zhuang... don't cry le ok? =D gong gong will heart pain de... awwwww
stupid huiying... make her cry!

gg to yi zhuang....
she asked me to post about her...
so here i am unwillingly...
shall not disclose any of her secrets!
i am nice right?
haha....
lol this is such a random post which is forced out by yz....

lesson ended at 10.30am today!
well done man...
so early...
might as well don't go school...
slacked in school and went for choir audition...
i totally rocks in singing...
haha...
cos i actually sang at a much lower note than a guy!
and i did it purposely so that i will not get into choir!
me and laoda were like singing so horribly...
luckily the guy din get pissed off with us...
we then went back to swiss...
and we wore our pj uniform today!
imagine me in my pj uniform...
zzz....
even i also don't wan to imagine...
crapped with the teachers a while b4 i go looking for the big head monster....
and wah!
her head is really big!
but she is a friendly monster for i spent 2hours talking to her!
haha....
talking with jia en has always been fun and enjoyable...
and it feels relax too!
and so we went back to sj room and slack again after staying in some ulu corner of swiss campus for that 2 hours...
and then...
huiying came looking for me...
both of us are really jokers!
we saw each other in the canteen but din had much reaction...
it is till she went to sj room then we become hyper...
din see her for like 4 days?
and i seriously miss this siao gi na...
my 2 years partner ok?
not to mention that i actually don't really like her in my lower secondary life...
but now...
totally in love with her!
lol... sounds so weird...
but nvm, we understand jiu hao!
we danced the fun and cute dance in sj room...
entertaining han zi and jia en...
after that i went home with jia en..

hope to see u soon in the near future my dear!

i am a horrible person...
had been pang seh-ing her for the whole pae period,
it is as though history repeats itself...
only looks for her when i need her...
time to do some reflection....
i really feel guilty,
just that i can't control myself....
control my power wu la ba ha!
repenting in progress~~~~

met jia en after school today...
she is the same as b4,
if not more lame...
really had a great time talking to her cos she really noes me inside out...
and she noes me probably more than i noe myself...
will miss the times we meet each other early in the morning b4 assembly...
and share our problems...
it is difficult to find a good friend,
but it is more difficult to sustain that relationship...
hope that i will sustain mine with jiji, mei hong, jia en and my shifus...
hope i can...
i really hope...

slacking and slacking...
don't really look forward to monday...
oh ya... quan xiang is going to appeal so that the whole class can stay together...
hope that his appeal is successful!
and i am taking Maths, Chemistry, Physics plus General studies in chinese... (same as laoda)
celeste tan... i also miss u la!!! (imagine joy shouting that i am unfair in the background)

back from 08S13's outing!

look at the way joy posed! haha.... looks so fierce!eugene is thinking which ball he should aim for...janice posing... with fabian?me and shifus~~

pro at work...mj session!!!wah! scandal!!!concentrating hard~~~when it comes to audi, no one can stop joy!ermmm.... no comments... don't noe wat they looking at and wat derek is trying to do...girls acting macho, guys acting sissy?first is xh looking stupid...and then lao da...L at the guys~~~~ which means lame... cos they ran away...

if only the night will never end....

lol! i lied about the time again!
today is quite boring...
wasn't able to feel the same excitement and thus was so much less enthu for O2...
not that the SCAP members din do a good job...
i think is my own problem...
unable to let go...
keep on comparing and holding on...
it is time i learn to settle down...
if i don't make this stay in PJC an enjoyable one,
then no one will...

looking forward to tml meeting!
finally can meet my shifus again...
not only that, GJC will be able to reunite again...
maybe a few pple will be missing but it is okay =D
cos ren bu zai, xin zai...

celeste tan... stop emo-ing!

Wishing you were somehow here again...
Wishing you were somehow near...
Sometimes it seemed, if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here...
Wishing I could hear your voice again...
Knowing that I never would...
Dreaming of you, won't help me to do, all that you dreamed I could...

simply tired!!!

this is scary... i am starting to forget hw u guys look...

wat a sian O2 it is...
the only enjoyable part is when yz lead in cheer and song...
cos i was laughing like siao...
but she din go off pitch la, just find it funny...
as she is leading the cheer,
i really feel that she has grown up le =D
happy for her...
she is no longer the spoilt brat yz that she thinks she is...
and ya, lao da and i are joining reading club...
the pple in the club seems fun =D
met xh and joy at lot 1
the feeling is just so right!
feels as though 08S13 is back again..
i even miss pple whom i am not close with in 08S13. e.g. Michelle
and i find ernest better than i thought...
miss every single person from 08S13...
oh ya...
da tou and joy in same og...
wat a lucky girl she is...

i really miss u guys.... even my boss =D

i am so happy to see u guys that i almost pinched myself, to confirm that it is not a dream...

tml will be the first day of O2 orientation...
and so it marks the end of PAE officially...
haven buy my PJ clothes...
think i will look damn weird in it...
and yap, my two shifus for auditon are posted to AJC so...
good luck to them =D
jia en is in AJC and so is my best maple buddy tan mei hong...
will miss them and the fun we had doing pumpings...

yi zhuang and lao da are in the same OG...
so nice right? but yz will be busy doing SCAP's things...
wonder how my OG will be like, OG19...
thanks yi zhuang for the insider's information though it is not really very detailed! =X

GJC will have a easy time meeting since the 8 of us are being posted to 3 different schools...
PJC: me, lao da, beatrice, wan xuan
SAJC: alicia
AJC: janice, joy, xiu han

remember the meeting on saturday... hope to see u guys there!

LOL...
i got into PJC science for JAE...
expected, so not at all surprising...
hacked into huiying's acc...
she posted to SA...
haiiii....
expected, so nothing to say...
Janice is in AJC...
she din wan to be posted there, don't noe for wat reason...
yi zhuang also in PJC... happy that MOE din repost her to a better school =D

thats all that i noe...
haiiiii... the urge to go back to PJC for school... wat is wrong with me? -_-

shall lie about the time this thing is being posted =X
had a great time today...

wahahaha.... love to take pictues~~~

better have a great year ahead since i had my sixth yu sheng this year today...
went to zheng lao shi house in the morning, happy to see those old friends...
but the gap between us is quite big la, since i am in a different school..
quite a number of them are the IP students so its like nothing much for us to talk about the o lvl results...
had a great time gossiping with them, it is always great to gossip...
especially when u are not the one being aimed...
went home at 2 plus and ate my lunch...
slept all the way till 6 plus cos i was too tired...

and yah...
tml is the last day of PAE...
feeling so damn emo now...
haiiii...
xh msg me to remind me not to pon school...
janice kept emo-ing in msn...
joy asked me not to remind her tml is last day...
wan xuan also sad that tml last day...
although lao da din say much, but i noe deep inside she also cherish these friends a lot...
really will miss all GJC-ians

as janice says :" once a GJC-ian, always a GJC-ian"
this time round, it's really farewell my friends...

went to miss toh house today...
only two words to describe today...
DAMN FUN..
watched them played Mj and i finally get to noe a bit more abt the game... they din gamble though, since mh and cx are beginners and yp isn't really pro in it too. only laoda got great experiences with Mj...
mh damn lucky, won for a few times consecutively seh...
luckily never gamble, if not the others sure lose like siao!
cx damn suay, never win once...
had steamboat for dinner...
pop the sparkling juice and we lao yu sheng again!
the fifth one i had this year~~~
ended the day and here i am, blogging~

hui ying dear... i will miss u~~~ have fun in SA

hui ying.... i promise i will master this song =D
我想我已开始有点疑惑
好像被他说中些什么
难道已经没有别的选择
只能乖乖的束手就策
难过的是我们做了选择
是对是错谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得
为何在我心中有舍不得

看着你要走 还装着笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口 如何挽留
感情这条线 注定只能这么远

不敢相信已经来到终点
想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前
我还傻傻画着 幸福线

看着你走远 还继续装笑脸
掩饰折磨我能撑多久
如果现在开口 怎么挽留
感情这条线 注定无法延长一点
你已不在 而我何时才清醒相信一切都是命
不曾放弃你 我不会说什么默默的承受 像个男子汉
Let the words remain unsaid

only the 男子汉 part not true~
this song is for all GJC pple who are leaving too...

had our last meet up with ying today...
she is going to SA soon... (awwwwww..... we will miss u)
really starting to feel the impact of her leaving now...
really sad as she is my partner for 2 years...
life would be weird i guess...
no one to comfort me when i am angry,
no one to accompany me to toilet,
no one to sing songs with me in classes...
remembered u say the both of us is 相辅相成 one?
so without u hw is baba going to cope with JC life?
i noe yz and lao da will still be around, but it just don't seem right.
guess that was hw lao da felt when yp left for poly...
i guess i might finish the lollipops that u gave me last year soon....
你扇扇扇，我kiap kiap kiap...

and u and lao da cried just now...
i wanted to cry but u noe, i just couldn't force out a single tear....
sometimes, pple who don't cry actually suffers a bigger pain...
cos they pile up all their sadness in their heart and cannot find a way to let it out...

second last day for PAE, pple are leaving soon...
can feel the sense of lost greatly, and it doesn't feel good...
this bunch of GJC pple are really fun...
and we are just getting started for bonding...
but we have to learn to look ahead i guess...
and we just have to, even if we don't wan...
just now joy and xh wanted to give me a hug, but i don't wan...
i don't wan to start emo-ing and maybe crying, and look weak in front of them...
they are the best friends that i have met during the whole PAE...
and i don't wan to end the day with such a sad note...

just now when lao da they all shouted "THATS IT",
my heart stopped for a second...
i noe they are just joking,
but i don't ever want JIJI to THATS IT...
it really hurts to see JIJI parting and all those,
and i noe i am being bad by going back home with them and not joining u guys for the present thing....
but then, we still have our monthly JIJI gatherings,
while for them, it is really THATS IT...
so pls pardon me, my dears...
and sorry laoda, for hurting u today...

well, at least the ride back home was happy today~
lets cherish, our last day together....

this is a picture taken b4 release of O lvl results~~lol.... we looked so relaxed!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN XIU HAN, aka my shi fu~~~

被遗忘的玫瑰...

the ride back home was lonely today without u two.....

wonder if i will continue to take 307 back home in the future...