had our last meet up with ying today...
she is going to SA soon... (awwwwww..... we will miss u)
really starting to feel the impact of her leaving now...
really sad as she is my partner for 2 years...
life would be weird i guess...
no one to comfort me when i am angry,
no one to accompany me to toilet,
no one to sing songs with me in classes...
remembered u say the both of us is 相辅相成 one?
so without u hw is baba going to cope with JC life?
i noe yz and lao da will still be around, but it just don't seem right.
guess that was hw lao da felt when yp left for poly...
i guess i might finish the lollipops that u gave me last year soon....
你扇扇扇，我kiap kiap kiap...

and u and lao da cried just now...
i wanted to cry but u noe, i just couldn't force out a single tear....
sometimes, pple who don't cry actually suffers a bigger pain...
cos they pile up all their sadness in their heart and cannot find a way to let it out...

second last day for PAE, pple are leaving soon...
can feel the sense of lost greatly, and it doesn't feel good...
this bunch of GJC pple are really fun...
and we are just getting started for bonding...
but we have to learn to look ahead i guess...
and we just have to, even if we don't wan...
just now joy and xh wanted to give me a hug, but i don't wan...
i don't wan to start emo-ing and maybe crying, and look weak in front of them...
they are the best friends that i have met during the whole PAE...
and i don't wan to end the day with such a sad note...

just now when lao da they all shouted "THATS IT",
my heart stopped for a second...
i noe they are just joking,
but i don't ever want JIJI to THATS IT...
it really hurts to see JIJI parting and all those,
and i noe i am being bad by going back home with them and not joining u guys for the present thing....
but then, we still have our monthly JIJI gatherings,
while for them, it is really THATS IT...
so pls pardon me, my dears...
and sorry laoda, for hurting u today...

well, at least the ride back home was happy today~
lets cherish, our last day together....